Lost it

So, I gathered my composure and headed into the mutiny.... to find.... it not really there. There is no truth, just one's own interpretation of the truth. My truth and your truth are different. All I had to go on were my feelings. Feelings of betrayal. Unprofessional, unkind, bullying and sneaky. Those were my accusations... then, I lost it. I lost my temper in an explosive way... I thought my ears were gonna burst. My colleagues saw how hurt I felt, they delivered their defense... we shouted, we reassured, we thrashed it out. More work to be done but it's moved... moved from a stalemate, from whispers... moved to clearer understanding...not yet resolved, but better. I felt so alarmed and shocked by my outburst, all I wanted to do was have a bath.... yesterday when I received news of the 'mutiny' I washed my feet. What strange animals we are.